Hoping for smooth sailing...

Now that we are on the fast track for fertility treatments, I of course have been doing all the online research I can about our different options. I'm hoping that with a little medication we'll get pregnant but judging by the way our conceiving process has been going so far I'm preparing myself for something more invasive. I do just keep thinking how fabulous (and much cheaper!!!) it would be if all we needed was a little magic pill to get us pregnant. I have a friend who had PCOS and got pregnant after only one month of medication. There are so many stories like that out there, I am so hopeful that our story can be one of them too!

I want our story to have a happy ending, but I want the journey to be an easy one too. That may be asking too much, but we have already been through so much. No one talks about how the months before you go to seek fertility treatment are rough and then once you see the specialists and decide upon your treatment, there is no guarantee that they will work and so the months following could be just as rough as the previous ones. Perhaps after seeking treatment it could actually get more stressful, now we are going to be spending money (a lot of money) for procedures that may or may not work with our future hinging upon the outcome.

I know my husband and I are prepared to do everything that we can to have a child of our own, I just hope we can weather it well. We are so in love with each other, and we are committed partners in this life that we are trying to carve out for ourselves and I don't want anything to get in the way of that. Fertility problems just drain you and I know that nothing could ever end our marriage but I don't want us to even have a bad week with each other. My husband handles stress much better than I do, I get snappy and can kind of freak out a little but I want to be tough and strong for him so that we can deal with this together and sanely. He already works so hard and has a pretty stressful work life and I just didn't want his home life to stressful as well. I just wanted everything to be perfect. Well, it is way too late for the perfect conception but I would settle for a bump free ride to an imperfect one.